Trying to be ready for spring farming by mixing boiled soy beans to recycle soil, which my old friend organic farmer suggested. Will try to harvest as mush as possible for my daily life. 秋野菜の残りを収穫、春の窓際農園の準備を始める。土リサイクルの為に、茹で大豆を土に混ぜてみた。古い友人鹿児島の有機農場古澤さん、いつも色々教えてくれて有難う！今年も出来るだけの自給自足目指す。
Corn salad, daikon, beets from left.
How could this side hole be made? My usual enemy squirrel? こんな横穴なぜ出来る？ いつもの敵、りす？
Needed to stop taking Tagrisso though it was working amazingly its chore but brought me pneumonitis. As soon as I started to take heavy dose of steroid to treat pneumonitis, I felt sick badly. My oncologist’s second choice, Tarceva, should do well in me. I have great appetite and enjoy cooking and eating everyday. Grocery’s home delivery service and some of my friends help ( Thank you so so much!) make it possible. I am enjoying slower life. Well, no choice but i like it : )
My favorite bathroom : )
高濃度ステロイドの副作用で、12月からの1月半以上、ムーンフェイス、爪周り炎症、バッファロー肩、抜け毛、怠さ、やる気が出ない。散々でした。肺癌の自覚症状は、ほとんど無いので、辛いのは薬の副作用ばかりで、『あれ？私の病気ってなんだっけ？』って感じ。新しい薬（タルセバ）が効きますように。 幸運にも食欲はあるので、宅配サービスや、友人の手を借り（ありがとう！）食材を手に入れ、料理を楽しんでいます。長い事、作家業、先生業、親業にどれだけの労力と時間を費やしていたか。病気しなければ、こんな時間は経験出来ていなかった。人生皮肉なもんだ。がん治療というのは、治療と副作用と折り合いをつけながらその人に合う方法を見つける事みたい。
Installation “Dwelling - egfr mutation” : egfr突然変異の棲家
I repurpose found objects such as used clothes, junk mail, discarded gum on the street as art supplies. Most recently, I have started to use the tools and processes that I have developed to consciously work with tumors since my diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer. The tumors have become another art material in my life. I'm not fighting against the tumors; I am relating to them as a radical act in life of acceptance and creativity.
Till Dec. 29 Fri-Sun noon-5pm.
At Williamsburg Art and Historical Center, 153 Broadway, Brooklyn. Entrance is on Bedford Ave. 5min. walk from Marcy Ave station(M train)
My art is my own, and this posting is not in cooperation with the venue but of own doing.
#installation #windows #dwelling #staircase #niizekihiromi #contemporaryart #williamsburg #brooklyn #broadway #nyc #EGFRmutation #fucklungcancer #fuckstage4 #adenocarcinoma #pantsudansu #dancedance #danceitout
Installation “Dwelling - egfr mutation” : egfr突然変異の棲家
I repurpose found objects such as used clothes, junk mail, discarded gum on the street as art supplies. Most recently, I have started to use the tools and processes that I have developed to consciously work with tumors since my diagnosis of stage 4 lung cancer. The tumors have become another art material in my life. I'm not fighting against the tumors; I am relating to them as a radical act in life of acceptance and creativity.
Till Dec. 29 Fri-Sun noon-5pm.
At Williamsburg Art and Historical Center, 153 Broadway, Brooklyn. Entrance is on Bedford Ave. 5min. walk from Marcy Ave station(M train)
My art is my own, and this posting is not in cooperation with the venue but of own doing.
#installation #windows #dwelling #staircase #niizekihiromi #contemporaryart #williamsburg #brooklyn #broadway #nyc #EGFRmutation #fucklungcancer #fuckstage4 #adenocarcinoma #pantsudansu #dancedance #danceitout
Come to see my site, 95 Starr St. Brooklyn. NY
SEP. 21&22(sat&sun) , 1-8pm
recent works by Niizeki Hiromi, Ayane Kurai
Oh, this is my long term luxury pleasure, organic farming, out of the window of NYC apartment during summer. Since I am from Tokyo originally, farming was not something very close to me and never interested before I move to NYC. My Italian landlord used to give me bags of harvest such as tomatoes, cucumbers, grapes and more from their large back yard every summer. Home grown tomatoes taste like fruits and so good. Squirrels are always my enemy.
Several days ago, mini tomatoes, medium tomatoes and Shiso Japanese basil.
This morning, more tomatoes and a nigauri/bitter cucumber that Eiko and Ken brought me a baby plant that amazes me how fast and powerfully grows since last month.
東京にいた頃は植物育てる事に興味は無かってけれど、イタリア人の大家が、毎夏ほぼ毎日裏庭でバーベキューして、トマト、きゅうり、葡萄を育て、たまに袋いっぱいのそれらをくれて、そんなのを見ながら自分でもやる様になった。育児で忙しかった時期を除いて、nyのアパート窓外のオーガニックファーミングは、私にとってとっても贅沢な楽しみだ。実益も当然兼ねたいし、シソ等はどこでも手に入る訳じゃ無いし、限られたスペース本気で使ってる。来年はきゅうりも作りたいな🥒。肥料はミミズのウンコ。敵はリス。今年は、大声出して棒でつついたら来なくなった。
Very first time in the my lung cancer project, we saw enlarged ct-scanned my lung images and he talked about them friendly and clearly. The biggest cancer tumor, was about an inch, on my right bottom and back of my lung and some smaller ones around my color bone and throat. And hundreds of small little white dots all over the both lungs, look like stars in the sky in Ohio. He said that my lung cancer looks very unusual. (Actually my very first pulmonary doctor in my neighborhood hospital diagnosed me as not cancer after a week hospitalization in earlier May. He said it did not look cancer to him. Hello?! ) There was a small darkest part and that was how healthy lung should look like.
Tagrisso could kill all cancer cells just when it stops working hidden small cancers usually come back. “IF” tagrisso works years on me, I could have a good chance to live longer, so that the way to cure lung cancer could exist( just not yet) since I am still young and strong, have a lot of energy, all other organs look very healthy at this point. Hope that happens to me.:)
He said to me that eat whatever I can and keep the body weight so my body can fight inside of me. Though I lost appetite for side effect of tagrisso, I am feeding myself and not loosing weight last weeks. Good job myself :)
Went to eat meat balls at IKEA, Brooklyn.
肺専門医に、息子と2人で会って来た。テレビドラマで見る癌宣告場面みたいな、大きな胸部ct scanイメージ見て、初めて説明された。3cm位の腫瘍が右下後ろに１つ。後、1cm位のが鎖骨上リンパ、喉周りに有る。後は両肺中に夜空のピカピカの星みたいに100以上の小さいのが散りばめられてる。平常の健康な肺はこんな風に黒く見えるんですって言われた黒い部分は、横にほんのちょっとだけ。ステージ4の5年後の生存率5%以下って言うのが有るんだけど、私はどうかと聞いてみた。この数字には一切の治療も施せず亡くなる人、体力の落ちた高齢者も多く含まれる。一方で、私は既にタグリッソと言う新薬が使えている、若く体力が有る、他の内臓は今の時点では健康で有るので、新薬で数年生きれれば、その間に根治方法が見つかるかる可能性が有り(まだ無いけど)、長く生きられる可能性は大きいと。えっと、可能性は有るって事で :) 現実を見ながらも前向きにいくよ。
This is my first appointment to pulmonary doctor at the hospital where I see my oncologist, who is lung cancer specialist. It seems like very common to have oncologist snd lung doctor. I am very curious how this meeting will be different from oncologist. My son will come with me as he did all others.
肺癌の専門家医には既に数回会って満足しているので、PCP、肺専門医も同じ病院で決める事にした。非常に猥雑な保険手続き時間も短縮されるだろうし、このコロンビア大学病院来てから、事が非常に早くスムースに進むからね。肺癌患者は、癌科と肺科の医者両方に会うのは、極普通の事らしい。肺専門医と肺癌専門医では、どんな診療の違いがあるのか興味シンシン。
Some of members who played together in the band, KureKure, at the art school in Tokyo sent me cool Japanese foods, I meant lots of different and new kinds for me who resides in NY for decades, some are very locals, love them all super thanks! This is the one I was attracted honestly in a second, Amanatto, dried sweet bean that is also from very local from Yamagata prefecture, where all my families are originally from. The drummer at the band, aka Darle, Who is now the president of the local construction company, Yoshida Kensetsu, in Yonezawa area, must be the one who picked this for me. Love you!
Lightly sweetened, cooked and dried red soy beans, Beni Daizu.
東京の美大時代4年間一緒にバンド「クレクレ」でプレイしたメンバー数人が、マジ良い感じの食料送ってくれたぁ。サンキュ！ 勿体無いからケッチって食します:) 中でも、開封と同時に私の肺癌の胸にぎゅっと刺さったのが、山形の赤大豆甘納豆！ 甘さ控え目で病気の私でもがんがんいける！ ああ、嬉しい！私甘納豆大好き:) 今米沢で吉田建設社長やってる、ドラマーのダールのチョイスかと。サンキュ〜！ ラブ ユー！
I needed to change my PCP. I love my oncologist team at Columbia medical Center a lot. Because my PCP is in different net work, takes extra waiting time to get referral that is required to see new doctors each time from my insurance company. As a result, it cause over 2weeks of delays for me to start treating my lung cancer stage 4! PCP who takes my insurance in Columbia network should save time! Today, I will ask to choose a lung doctor for me and make referral for a nutritionist for my consultation, which originally requested over 2weeks ago and my old network was so slow to process that made me mad! Don’t you want me to get better?! 今日、新しいPCPに会います。PCPとは、何か健康に気になる時に、先ず会う医者で、必要に応じて、専門医を紹介してくれる。
今回、肺癌と診断されて、初めの1週間は、感傷的になる暇も無く(1月経った今もまだ)、とにかく何か知ってそうな友人にテキスト/e-mail を書いた。「何をしたらいい？」って。健康が取り柄だったので、出産と年次健康診断しか病院に行ったこと無かったので。大きな苦難を乗り越え(！)95%諦めていたセカンドオピニオンが実現し、結局それが私の選んだコロンビア大学病院肺癌専門医だ。
が、私が普段健康診断に行くPCPとネットワークが違うため、直ぐ飲みたいタグリッソの処方箋出来るのに待たされ、肺専門医、栄養士、生活療法師に至っては、私の肺癌専門医と繋がりのない人材しか選べない？！ 少なくとも、今回コロンビアでの経験は、色んな意味で、今まで私が受けていた医療より質が格段に上質な事が分かったので、コロンビア内で私の医療スタッフを固めようと決めた。一度コロンビアに入ると、自分が外から受けるNY特有のストレスが大きく減るのです。人材が優秀で、患者の為に動いてくれ、事がスムーズに進むので。もう既に肺癌ステージ4で、十分病気なので、外からのストレスは出来るだけ減らしたい！ これ以上私を病気にしないで！！と言うわけで、PCPを私の肺癌専門医ネットワークから探そうと！ ま、一度マジで電話口で泣いた程、一悶着はあったけれど、どうにかシステム上は、無駄な待ち時間無しに行けるのでは無いかと思ってる。 病気に対して、前向きに戦う意思大有りです。
Participatory Art Fair | Chelsea TODAY, 1-5PM.
FOOD + MUSIC + FREE + OPEN TO EVERYONE
COME TO POKETTO & many other fun activities!
Where: West 17th Street, between 9th + 10th Avenues
The second time since getting C-section 19 years ago.
I have been teaching almost everyday. glad to have this 10days off as spring brake.
can’t stop.
4 large Asian sweet potato, reddish skin and creamy color inside at the store. Steamed, peeled, sliced and air dry for days. Chewy, naturally sweet old style Japanese sweets. $7.50 for 4 large potato. Weren’t they much cheaper than that? Can’t stop anyway.
Musashino Consortium 2018, Musabi Almni exhibit. - May 20th, reception May 9th, 6-8pm. Gallery OneTwenyEight 128 Rivington Street, New York, NY. 10002. W-Sat:1-6, Sun: 1-5pm. Come to see me and other 13 artists.
Come to see me and other Japanese Artists who’ve resided and worked in NY for decades. The reception is Wed, May 9th, 6-8pm, at OneTwentyNine Gallery, 129 Rivington Ave, New York, 10002.
Come to purchase original usable art at Queens Blvd, between 70th Riad and Yellowstone Blvd, Forest Hills, Queens. Sunday, April 22, 10-6
Solstreet’s Holiday Market, 33 Grand st, Brooklyn, NY. noon -7
Come to see and touch actual usable arts of mine. Hope to see you there!
What Dwelling means to you? A space could be divided into this side and the other side by a piece of wall. What dose this side mean to you? What about the other side?
When I still lived in my parents house that was a newly built large modern house in suburban Tokyo, I did not enjoy being there. It was such a great feeling to live in my own old small studio apartment with sharing vault toilet. You never know what makes someone happy.
ぺらぺらの紙切れで空間を区切ってみる。あっち側とこっち側。 あなたにとってこっち側はどんな意味がある？ あっち側は？ 東京郊外で新築のそこそこ大きな実家に住んでいたけれど、２０歳の頃、汲み取り共同トイレの小さなアパートに引っ越した。親の立場になれば色々思うことはあるけれど、私の立場になって思えるのは私だけなので。引っ越してよかった。その数年後には、日本を出てしまったわけだけれど。
Over two decades ago, I started to collect junkmails to make handmade paper mache. Plastic windows are bi-products of it. The nature of the material: transparency, strength, flexibility, sound, colors and designs which reflect the envelopes’ original purposes, has led me continue my investigation. 20年以上前、頼みもしないのに毎日届くジャンクメールを使って、紙粘土を作っていました。その副産物として生まれたのが、宛先を見せるための窓。軽いのに意外と丈夫、情報保護のためのデザイン、そして良い音を出してくれます。紙粘土より、窓の方が使いたい機会が増えて来ちゃいました。
All insides of envelopes create interior of the dwelling. Most of windows show their original security camouflage design as their frame. If you could be at the site, would hear the sound the windows make. 情報保護のための内側面を合わせてこっち側を作りました。あっち側から見れば、こっちがあっち側です。
QAI event went to 4pm. My project has extended till 8pm with potable lights. Yoko and Mayuko, Thank you for your great support till late this night. ライト持参で、夜の公園にしばらくいることにしました。付き合ってくれた、まゆこさん、ヨーコさん、感謝です。
It is great to be able to participate QAI17, Queens wide Public Art Event as my 4th year. Thank you. Yvonne Shortt, for your great effort to make it happen again.
Three rain drills as of 3pm today. I have built pretty good confidence to deal with light rain. 3時の時点で、3度目の雨準備。小雨なら1人でどうに出来る気がして来た。
